Thursday, January 27, 2011

Don't Dream, It's definitely over!

This morning, while perusing around my boring facebook page, an ad caught my eye...EXAHOLICS! So I clicked the link and found an actual twelve step program for getting over an ex. Personally, I don't think a twelve step program is what's necessary to get over an ex. If you can't understand why something is over, take a good look at your own behavior in the relationship! I'm never the best person for relationship advice. Obviously, my failed marriage is not entirely someone else's fault. But it is just that...failed and over. I've stood my ground this time and am proud to say even when given guilt trips, called a slut, called a drunk, called a's still over. I don't understand how anyone would think those moments of genius would make someone want you back. It doesn't work that way!

So the bitch in me (not a huge part of me...but it's there) wants to send this link to my ex. I want him to move on for the sake of my boys and myself. No more dragging out the inevitable with promises of changing and "doing better". Since August/September, I have had my mind made up to see this divorce through and never suffer the same heartache that I have for the last...well almost decade. I've had to pay for the divorce in it's entirety, which is no small feat in itself. I should have the last "installment" paid Friday. Hopefully that means everything is over. I just can't wait for this drama to fade and me to move on with my life. Most importantly, I want my boys to be happy and healthy kids. Listening to their father continually go on about why I should take him back and being put in the middle, is far from healthy. I just want to physically hurt him when my babies cry to me because I should "give Daddy another chance".

I think the best idea so far, is I don't give a fuck if he gets over me. I didn't abuse, use, and mistreat everyone around me for my own selfish gain. I've grown indifferent on the feelings of those who do mistreat others. If you deserve it. Learn from your past or you are doomed to repeat it, Right? I know I will never be anyone's doormat again. So if you can't get over your ex, you just don't want to believe it's over, or you can't let go of the past...check out Exaholics. Maybe you can buddy with other sad, depressed individuals who can't deal with the pain.

Me...I'm good and will stay that way! 


Wednesday, January 26, 2011

Fear (1996)

This isn't my typical movie post, not really considered a horror movie, but still one of my favorites! I've seen this one at least 100 times and watched it yet again this morning for this week's WBW post. Yes, it's a Girl movie, but a great one. I will be the first to admit that the acting isn't the greatest, and watching it all these years later, I realize that. I guess I feel a kindred spirit with Nicole in the good little girl in a bad relationship. Part of me wants to scream for her to run away in the beginning! Girls make horrible decisions and this movie proves that art imitates life.

So if by watching this I reaffirm that guys with horrible tempers are a bad idea, it's a plus. I think all teenage girls should watch this, but if my past is any indication, they won't all learn from it!

If you haven't seen it watch it! I can't promise the greatest movie you'll ever see, but it's good for a couple of hours of entertainment. Added note: Ms. Milano is a slut in yet another movie! Surprise!!!

Tuesday, January 25, 2011

House of the Devil (2009)

I didn't expect much from this one to be honest. I've started it a few times and gotten too busy to finish it, but this morning I sat and watched...

I was surprised to see some of the most awesome, gory scenes in this. I must admit, I watched the scene of Megan lighting the cigarette in the car three times (in slow motion). Just beautiful! This definitely has some greatest scenes I've seen in a horror film in some time. The acting is much better than I expected as well. It's not too cheesy or over the top and has a very "real" feel to it.

Tom Noonan makes this one for me. He is very odd while still being somewhat endearing somehow. I personally would trust him, which would ultimately lead to my certain death, but he's so sweetly strange without being overly creepy. That one detail, in my opinion, is what sets this apart from other movies with the same general plot. The "bad guy" doesn't seem all bad.

Another great detail of House of the Devil for me was the time period. Everyone knows the 80s were awesome, and most of the greatest horror films were created in the 70s and 80s...this fits in rather nicely. I loved the wardrobe, hair and style of this one. It just works for me.

If you haven't seen it, you should. I'm not saying it will change your life, but if you enjoy good, old fashioned, gory horror, this one's definitely worth a view, if not a buy.